Slide 2 = 1st allergy attack in over a year. 2 years? My brain is going to be at about 10% of my normal which is generally iffy anyway. So I'm not going to talk much. I don't trust myself to not get confused and say wrong/weird stuff. But I have Star Wars 4-6 (actually I have 1-7 but I just FINALLY got 4-6 for my bday), some other good movies (not all of them are pictures but shout-out to whoever decided to make a Cloverfield + Dark City double feature DVD), Welcome to Night Vale novel, its sequel It Devours (not pictured), and a book rec from a friend "The Name of The Rose" by Umberto Eco (also not pictured. It's 576 pages which is a bit daunting to look at. It sounds great though! Supernatural murder mystery set in 1327 aka late medieval age.)
Self-care is noticing the things you do for yourself and the people around you that aren't earth shattering but are still good! Credit goes to @ kerinky on Twitter! It can be simple things. This year I tried a new food, a new wine, a new cocktail, a different kind of music. I've made myself take a shower and do housework in the same day(!!) even though I didn't want to and could hardly afford to use the spoons. Not advocating using up spoons you don't have if you can help it, but I can mark off that square: also for going back to therapy, but that's also the "took some good advice" square. Most of these I can apply to just this summer. I'm proud of that! I want to see more BINGO sheets like this. Maybe I'll make some.
I'm watching Helix and this line came along: "Life is an experiment." It made me think of my handle (username) which I recently explained to a friend. A while back I'd looked up the word indelible when I first read it. I'd been wanting a new handle anyway: one that wasn't related to any fandoms. A bit later I suppose I had an existential moment? It suddenly popped into my head that life is all improv. You can plan for everything you can imagine but almost always something else happens and you still end up having to improvise. Once something is done it cannot be changed or undone. Indelible means something that's impossible to be unwritten or erased. Thus, life is indelible improv. I can be deep sometimes ;p Image totally edited and filtered because I felt like it and because it made the text show up clearer.
FINN! I've had the ornament for over a year (I love his side-eye XD ) and I got the Funko for my bday!! Got him with my other favorite black man in the sky, Falcon. OrlandoStrong key/ID holder thingy, Belle Funko adorbz (favorite Disney princess from childhood), Hufflepuff lanyard behind them, and a Star Wars intro wall cling thingy I haven't put up yet. It's going right above my TV, but I'm thinking about putting it on a yellow background since it's black text and that'd make it easier/possible to move.
My watching buddy. We're watching Helix. I had to start the series over because I got distracted from it by other shows for too long so I can skip the parts that scare him. He gets protective and can't look away from gore, violence, etc. but it bothers him so I try to skip it when I can. He gets scared when an animal "attacks" the camera and hides behind me and under a blanket though. Poor baby boy. I love my little bug 💙
I'm probably gonna end up posting either nothing for a while again or like 3 more times today. No idea. I'm gonna be running on 2 hours of sleep and coffee (hello, I'm Hawkeye) all day. I have therapy later so I might end up at negative spoons during or after that. Maybe not if I tell her what's up. Why today? Why did I just go "oh right, Tuesday works" and not look at the date!? I'm a bumblenugget *headdesk*
The last slide - be conscious, courteous, respectful - of people suffering from PTSD when using fireworks. Combat veterans, victims of domestic violence, mugging victims, people who've been shot, shot at, threatened, victims of any kind of firearms related trauma are often triggered by fireworks. Keep this in mind, America, as we approach the 4th. The next to last slide - please correct people when they use the word "trigger" incorrectly. I don't know how it became a thing (long before the election) to say "I'm triggered" when just disliking something. Stop minimizing, invalidating, and mocking mental illnesses. Another NO is using "OCD" to say someone's keeps things clean and organized. #aromantic #asexual #aroace people are JIST AS REAL AND VALID AS ALL OTHER #LGBTQ PEOPLE! I WILL FIGHT ARO/ACEPHOBES. #pride
Happy Birthday to my amazing sister! My best friend, loudest cheerleader, fiercest protector, and biggest supporter. I love you so much!
Happy Father's Day to the amazing people who shape us. Pop's support has been vital. He takes good care of my Momma. My mom's dad would have been a great person to know (2nd photo, shown with my mom as a baby and their pupper).
I say I'm a potato, I show that I'm a potato, and I get love 😭💙🌈 I love the people I know!! Keep in mind intersex and trans people! Are! Not! The! Same! We same some of the same stigmas! Intersex people get it worse sometimes. Educate yourselves! I'm about to start my period so hell to that nonsense (periods not education) 😩 Love y'all!!!!!!
#LoveWins I love it! Good on you, Poland, for making it an indestructible #pride symbol! (via LGBTQ Nation & GCN Ireland) [ In Warsaw, Poland a rainbow sculpture by Julita Wójcki titled Tęcza that wasn't originally related to LGBTQ & queer anything was repeatedly burnt down by homophobes so they made it a hologram in a spray of water and unveiled it for Pride this year. ]
I'm criticizing like mad lately because Aces and Aros ARE INHERENTLY PART OF THE QUEER COMMUNITY! I WILL COME AT YOU IF YOU ARGUE WITH ME! Not heteroromantic AND heterosexual AND cisgender ,= queer/"lgbt" community. (LGBT in quotes bc it's how people are arguing its exclusion.) Last 2 slides are MCU related (no spoilers about anything, just a few reasons I love the current Spider-Man actor and why I love Captain America) #asexual #demisexual #panromantic #nonbinary #enby #pridemonth
I can't figure out how I feel about how I look. I know how I've wanted to be perceived, how I've been perceived, and how I'm used to seeing myself. I've said "I look like a boy" to 2 people and both said "is that a bad thing?" and I honestly don't know how to answer that. I don't know how I feel. So much expectation is put on us to look one way or another. I want to look attractive to certain people but unnoticeable to strangers. It's an incredibly difficult struggle that most people can't relate to at all. Trans people have to stick together in some ways. Non-binary people are hard to find and harder to hold onto. Right now I feel better covered up. It's like 80 degrees out and I feel most comfortable in loose jeans, a baggy hoodie, and a beanie. I hope to feel comfortable with my body, face, even hair someday, but until then.. I just really, truly do not know. For now I'm just going to stick with losing myself in sci-fi media and cozy in loose fitting clothes.