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I went out last night and felt like “me” a 26 year old girl having fun with her friends 🙌🏽 💁🏼♀️ I even woke up feeling “normal”. ➖➖➖➖ I’m going to go live to talk about this but in therapy we had a break through moment. My “parts” IFS (internal family system) have been at war with each other for a while now and most of them are ready to start healing but there is a part (or several, I’m not sure) that is trying to get my attention. ➖➖➖ Parts of me feel safe but then there is a part of me that does not and it is holding me back from moving forward by expressing her emotions through body flashbacks / impulsive behaviors. ➖➖ For a long time my parts were unaware of each other. Now they know they are all fighting to be in the drivers seat. It’s even creepier that I can feel myself flip 😶 It’s aggravating but at least now I have some sort of direction to move in.
When you love yourself, your life and all that comes with it; when you love your vision & when you live in the moment with no fear of what is to come or dwell on what has already happened. I never want to lose this feeling. & if I ever do I’ll strive hard, work hard, burn hard until I get it back. I believe in myself & that means I believe in what I deserve. #Happiness 💕 Apologies for my absence once again. I’ve been pushing myself, challenging myself, finding myself. & every time I disappear I come back just a little bit stronger to be a stronger support to you. #SPOONIESTRONG #NEVERGIVEUPONYOURSELF #ConcussionAwareness #AnxietySupport #Depersonalization #Derealization
Thoughts from the bath... ☁ Depersonalization and disociation are words I hear a lot, I hear them from therapists , trough self research and ringing around in my head in the quite moments.... When I ask myself will I ever get a hold on this and at times do I want to? I don't know.... On these days if you could see the world trough my eyes how would it feel for you?.... To be in a body that you know is yours but not feel conected to feel spacey and disconected and inward yet outward.. And honestly it's just a mess... How to put into words something that to yourself and many others just looks like reality.... I don't know myself but I'll try.... Dissociation and depersonalization are disorders wich are comorbid to prolonged anxiety and distress wich causes a person to over a period of time become disconected as a defense mechanism to Harmful inputs from environment.... Up until last year I didn't know there was a name for this and I never spoke of it I kept it burried and it caused me a lot of pain feeling disconected from those around me like everyone I knew was firmly here and engaged and I was somewhere else 🚀... So hopefully someone seeing this today will get an aha moment of it isn't just me, these feelings are experienced by many others... And just as a side knote upside is people with anxiety are known to be more creative so channel these feelings and own every part of you... You are full of so much love and endless beauty and you don't even see it yet.. And either do I... But I'm getting there ..and so will you...🌻 #growth #anxiety #depersonalization #derealization #mentalhealth #mentalhealthblogger #instablog #myjourney #yourjourney
This is so amazing! 🤡I have only just discovered it so I had to share!! 🎃For anyone who struggles to know what they are feeling, gets #confused or #dissociative #depersonalization 🙋🏽♀️ this feelings wheel should help at least to pinpoint some feeling states you might be in 😷 Obviously it can really take a while sometimes to locate the specific feeling states and some emotions are easier to interpret than others but this should help at least 😎 ✨Uncomfortable as they sometimes are our emotions are our guidance system for life and without them we literally cannot navigate ourselves 🧐 if you choose one of the feelings in the centre you can then follow out to the breakdowns to see what the core feeling behind that general feeling really is - then choose from the six options on the third circle to get even more specific 👀
Happy Saturday! 🎉 From now on every Saturday for my gratitude practice I want to take time to express gratitude for 6 people who’ve impacted my life. This week I am starting off with a few "strangers” who I “met” via social media. 📲 ➖ @2ndcomingofd6 - Encouraging me & making me feel good about myself💚 ➖➖ @rizzutophoto - giving me advice & hope💙 ➖➖➖ @sekauffman & @madelinelala - making me giggle and being my wing ladies💕 ➖➖➖➖ @livingintheupsidedown - ensuring me that I’m not alone & rocking the side pony with me 🧡 ➖➖➖➖➖ @alaynacolleen - Listening to me when I need someone to help me through a difficult moment💜 ➖➖➖➖➖➖➖ i can’t express enough how much you have all helped me 🧡💙💚❤️💜💕
❌❌Fat is not a feeling❌❌ ❌❌ I am not my body, I am not my body ❌❌ ➖➖Back on the “I’m fat & gross” train right now➖➖➖ I’ve been catching myself depersonalizing a ton especially in the middle of conversations. 💭 ➖➖ I randomly got SUPER triggered this afternoon, exactly around the same time as I did yesterday and I have NO idea why…. Very interesting… 🤔 ➖➖ My body is fighting back yet again. The feelings finally let up a bit while I was at the movies. It’s crazy how I have to fully submerge myself into something else to stop myself from feeling 🤷🏼♀️
So I love this pic of myself and I'm thinking of cutting my hair like this again yay or nay? ?? . . . . . . #gay #lgbt #ftm #glbt #saga #love #trans #transguy #haircut #bored #depersonalization #derealization #ugh #idk #lonely #horny #sad #aesthetic #Queer #queer #homo #jeanjacket #messyhair #hair #help #idek #yeshomo #gayboy #dude #anxiety
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I want to be remembered for the help I give not the pain I feel ❌❌ During a guided meditation today they asked what emotion do you feel deep down in your core. Sad. ➖➖ Why is it so hard for me to allow myself to feel sad? You would think that it would be the easiest emotion to feel right? Personally, I think it’s because in general we are taught to suck it up and get over whatever is making us feel sad that it “doesn’t matter”, stop feeling sorry for yourself. ➖➖ I need to remind myself this isn’t the case in my circumstances. I can’t just suck it up and move on. I need to allow myself to feel sad and sorry for myself in order for me to move on. ➖➖ I’m starting to think that my body flashbacks are coming from the sad part of me that I just ignore and tell to shut up. *Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know* ➖➖ I need to mourn the loss of my life. I need to learn how to allow myself to do so. ➖➖ I’ve been very reluctant to talk lately and I’m not sure why. But I am going to admit to myself right now that I am sad. I am sad for myself, I feel sorry for myself, just typing the words feels uncomfortable and wrong but I need to show myself the same compassion I so openly give to others. ➖➖ I’m crying as I type this. I’m not being fair to myself by being hard on myself. This is a lot harder than you think it is for me to admit but I should be proud of the part of me who is ready to admit to the world she is sad. ➖➖ I am sad for a lot of reasons not just the abuse. I’ve gone through a lot of personal emotional traumas that play a big part in the way I feel. ➖➖ It’s easier to talk about things that are way far in the past than it is to talk about things that happened more recently. ➖➖ I know the abuse doesn’t define me, I know this. I will have control over it eventually. But I have a bigger problem that people can’t see or don’t see because of the progesss I’ve made. ➖➖ I’m getting good at pretending everything is fine again. When I allow myself to admit something is wrong it makes me feel better.
some cute locks from a bridge at bristol. it’s been a weird week & everything’s a little hazy but i think it’s getting better . . . . #lock #lockets #locks #bristol #film #photography #filmphotography #huji #colour #pretty #trip #bridge #photooftheday #dissociation #depersonalization #fun #mentalhealth #hazy #dark #grunge #darkaesthetic #pale #winter #couples #love
‘Playground’ #lifeisadreamproject 2016-2017 • A journey into depersonalisation in India and how streetphotography can be used as a tool to empower yourself. • • • • • • • #calcuttastreetphotography #depersonalization #derealization #indiastreetphotography #bengaliwomen #big_shotz_bw #playgroundfun #bnw_diamond #bnw_greatestshots #kolkatastreetphotography #indiastreetphotography #bnw_india
Taking a small break from my homework just to go on Instagram lol. I feel like drawing and making art right now. I’m not good at that but I really just feel like it for some reason. Art is so cool. I have too much homework though... actually kinda proud of myself today that I got some of it done earlier. I’ve been kinda happy today so yay!! • • • #depersonalization #dissociation #derealization
Today we made pancakes! So nice to be enjoying care free moments and creating memories again ☺️ #family #familymoments #specialtimes #depersonalization #derealization #anxiety #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #pancakes #pancake #pancakeday #memories #panicattack #nevergiveup #lightattheendofthetunnel #selflove #neversettle #neversettleforless #endstigma #staystrong