“How abundant are the good things you store up for those that fear you, that you bestow in the sight of all who take refuge in you. Praise Be to the Lord, for He showed me the wonders of His love when I was a city under siege.” Psalm 31:19,21 💝
Boys are napping and I am cleaning and drinking coffee and getting ready for the final bach party craft! All while enjoying the sun 🌞
Thanks to @thebeeandthefox for saying it better than I ever could💃🏼 there are loads of people I could tag, but I’m just gonna say thanks to all of you bc you know who you are and I can’t tag everyone I want; so I just tagged the mom the sister and the mentor. Thanks for always pursuing being the best you can be In Christ and through Christ. You are my strength. #internationalwomensday
“To appoint to them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them a garland for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they may be called trees of righteousness, the PLANTING OF JEHOVIAH, that He may be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3 This is how I fight my battles.
I’m concerned. How can it get better than two? Sure, you have tantrums and sure, sharing is hard and you’re driving us nuts cause you won’t drop the freakin pacifier. But you play hard, laugh hard, and are the most sensitive and the most gentle hearted and innocent boy. Lots of bad things happen in the world and when they do i go into my room and lie on the floor face down and beg God your tenderness changes everything in this world as much as it’s changed me. You started saying I love you, and it always starts with an “ohhh” in your tiny voice which shows me you love deeply. I have a feeling you always will. You finally started to let me sing but only when you feel like doing the motions and dancing. If you could just stop reading already, that would make me feel better about you getting older. You’re really smart. It’s shocking. But also great. Stay curious little one.
Then you turned one and you continued to love me and to learn. Learn, learn, learn. I learned the idea of losing you or anything bad happening to you made me feel more than anything I’ve ever felt. I also learned more shapes than I ever cared to know the names of. You made me laugh, and you reminded Dad and I why we love each other. You do that a lot.
You used to be a newborn. It was a difficult adjustment; learning to die to myself with no acknowledgment of my sacrifice. I felt true loneliness, like never before. I broke and I broke till I had nothing left to break and all I could do was receive from Him, and stop expecting it from anyone else. It was then I realized you never really new me, you just loved me. You had everything to give, and so did I. I always will.
The last few days of being 2 are upon us. Someone wake me up from this dream to my 1 year old who just turned 2😭
Spent all day in bed. Got ecoli from a bad icee machine last night; up all night lying by the toilet 😔He brought me all his cars and his puzzles and kept telling me to “get better mommy” and “feel better mommy” and “sorry your sick mommy”. Slept so much and took so many baths.. the past 24 hours felt like a dream. He was so present and so sweet to me. He is unconditional love.